Alive

This past pregnancy (so glad to be able to say past) was such a killer for me. I was pretty much in continual pain the entire time....pain I am not allowed to talk about publicly...but basically a ton of pain. It hurt to do everything, all the time. But what are you going to do while trying to chase around two other kids and just live life? You gotta push through it, and basically move on. And I don't know if from the pain, or hormones, or what, but the last few months I felt SO unsociable and unmotivated to do anything.

Now, 2 weeks after having Ryder...and really immediately after, I feel so alive. Back to myself, which seems like its been so much longer. I can't get enough of having people over for dinner. I want to cook for people every night. And going to things througout the week no longer seem like chores. I can't really explain it other than I just feel so alive, and it feels soo amazing!!!

"I pray that out of his glorious riches he may strengthen you with power through his Spirit in your inner being so that Christ may dwell in your hearts through faith. And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together wih all the saints, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowldege--that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God."


-Eph 3:16-19