Electonically handicapped

Sean and I have some kind of negative energy flowing through us that whatever we have electronically.....it breaks. Always. Never fails. We get something new, breaks. Got a new camera 2 years ago....breaks, got another new one last Thanksgiving, a month ago, broke.....super random. Turned it on, it popped and that was it, no fixing it, have to buy a whole new one completely. So thats just Cameras. Had a laptop, water spilled on it, broke (I blogged about that one). Got a Mac computer from Patrick.....broke. Then TJ hooked us up with an amazing new lap-top....broke. We are just not electonic people.......I don't know whats going on......

Beautiful

Last weekend got away on the Staff Retreat, got some much needed rest, time with God, prayer, time with my friends, mafia, great food (thanks babe).....so so great!

Came home Saturday and rested some more, hung with Sean and the kids, made hot chocolate and popcorn and played games and watched movies in the crazy thunderstorm......great family night.

Sunday morning went to church and had a ginormous lump in my throat and tears in my eyes from Nates amazing message. My heart goes out to our women!! God wants you to know (women) that you are beautiful! The lies that Satan is feeding us are WRONG......Satan hates us. he sees our beauty, and he hates it. It makes me sick. It makes me sad. We, as women, are being lied to, we are buying the lie, and living it out. We are insicure, hating our bodies, our own skin.....doing anything to cover up and distort the body we have for what our society and media make beautiful out to be. But God is sick of it, He has had enough, He wants us to know that He is right here breathing Life and Beauty into our souls. Stop turning to men, to sex, the world, to get the approval we so desperately seek. God is waiting, arms stretched out and open, longing for us to turn to Him. "God, am I beautiful?", "Yes, my daughter, I created you, I made every pore, every shape, every curve...and YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL"

VIsion

Saturday night I went to bed....and layed there wide awake, a thousand things going through my head.....I got a clear vision of all us Moms surrouding all our kids and praying over them...and i was like, okay God, really? and He was like, Yep. So then I layed there trying to figure out how in the world that would work with 15 of us moms and 25 plus kids. Really happening. So Tuesday rolls around and we meet here at our house. 13 moms show up, and a ton of kids....we made it work, it ended up being so amazing. The verse that Nate used a couple weeks ago during the Sexy Elephant was really sticking out in my head from Deut. Loving the Lord our God with everything in us, having these commandments ON our hearts, "Impressing them on your children. Talk about them when you are sitting at home and when you are walking along the road, when you lie down, and when you get up. Tie them as symbols on your hands and bind them on your foreheads...."
Anyway, it is so important for us as parents to not lose sight of this. To realize that these kids are our disciples, they are our priority right now. Its so easy to get caught up in looking out into the world to find our ministry, but the problem with that is that we miss whats going on right underneath our noses. I am speaking mainly to myself. I find myself getting so caught up in busyness of my life and going here and doing this and that that I don't take the time to mold my own kids. It makes me sick to my stomach. Its such a wake up call to me. Praying with all my friends the other day for their families and thier kids was so great for me. I loved that Caleb got to see what we were doing and all the kids got to see that we pray for them...not just before bed, or on the way to school, or when one of them has an owie or is sick or scared, but we do it together. We are molding our children. I can't wait to see our group and our children in 10, 15 years and see where we are and watch how our prayers for them has shaped them. I want to do this more. I want to surround our kids and pray. I know this is Gods heart for us. I am so excited as we build this foundation, for ourselves, and for our children.

Wallpaper

This has been me all day......removing the nasty old dirty wallpaper from our back bathroom......which at first I was like ugghhhh, it takes forever to soak it down strip off the paper, soak it again and peel off the glue.....but once i got into it, it was kinda fun. I LOVE picking things....anything...its kinda a gross fascination for me; picking pimples, dead skin, peeling skin, my kids' and seans pimples...i just can't handle it, once i see it I'm obsessed....its bad. Well peeling the glue off the walls was kinda like peeling sun-burnt skin......thus equalled me enjoying it.....i know i know, gross....but thats me.....Sean gets really annoyed with me constantly picking at him, so its been fun having something to funel my picking towards.....

at a loss......

I FINALLY finished the 4th book of the Twilight (Vampire) Saga.....now I feel at a loss of what to do with myself. I am so sad its finally over. Its been a part of my life for so long now....I was always thinking about Edward and Bella through the day and what was going on with them and the Voltori, and Renesmee, if Charley was ever really going to find out EVERYTHING, how Jake was doing.......now I have all my answers. Its over. I'm just at a loss. A very very small part of me wants to start them all over.....but if I want to still have a husband, I'm pretty sure Sean would leave me.........I better not. I'll settle for the movie in three weeks.

October Madness

Crazy week!!! It started on Friday with Seans whole family who came up from Wasco (Baks area) and stayed with us through Monday. We had such a great weekend with all of them! Seans mom and dad, 2 sisters, and all their kids. Crazy house with 12 people, but if you know me, you know I LOVE the CHAOS!!! We threw Caleb his 3rd birthday party (birthday was Monday). We made a whole day of it and he loved it, of course, what kid wouldn't kill for a WHOLE day of birthday presents (KTM presents), cake, candy, and cousins???.....So the Gafner clan all left Monday, I cleaned to prep the house for Mom Group, which was at our house Tuesday morning. Again, tons of fun, Love the craziness.....16 moms, 25 ish kids (couldn't get a good count with all them running a hundred miles), candy hunt, carmel apples, apple cider, fun times. So thats done with and Tuesday I spend cleaning once again (good thing I love to clean), carving pumpkins with Sean and the kids, and then Wed, I go clean my grandmas house, watch the Lance kids (who are in the middle of moving) and then get ready for Life Group at our house, clean, wake up this morning and watch my brother and sisters kids all morning......*sigh*....needless to say, I am supposed to meet with some gals on Thursdays, but I called and canceled.....I am staying home and letting the kids rule the roost for the evening and NOT getting out of my pjs. Skylar said "Mom, why are you still in your pajamas??" so baffled that I didn't get dressed for the day (NEVER happens!), and I told her "cause we are CHILLIN today!". So as much as I SUPER LOVE having people over and doing things.....PLEASE don't call me to do anything! I am welcoming the rain with open arms and CLOSED doors!

Captivated

Skylar comes up to me the other day and says, "Mom! Guess what?!! " and I respond accordingly, "What honey?" Sky- "I AM GOING ON A DATE WITH DAD!! NO you NO Caleb and NO Ryder. JUST me and dad! A SPECIAL date". I was so stunned by the sweetness of her excitement, the thoughfulness and sweetness of my husband who is romancing our daughter. How sweet though. The look on her face was sooo stinkin sweet, she IS being pursued, and she FEELS it. She knows she is LOVED and she thrives in that. Sean is the best dad. Our Daughter is so blessed to see what a Man of God lookes like who loves his family and treasures his Daughter. I couldn't be happier.

So last night they went on thier "Date". Skylar got all dressed up in a beautiful dress and a big white bow. Sean got dressed up (way hot). And he knocked on the door and gave her a flower. He opened the truck door for her and away they went. Toy Store, Red Robin, Movie......she was glowing when they got home......she will remember this forever, thank you Babe for being that Dad to take the time to romance our daughter. We are so blessed by you.